... and i thought things might have been working out!

well matt dumped me, via email, very distressing, and well, that put me into foul mode over the weekend, but thankfully ash saved me from my own demons, and we went shopping at the mall. then UN lunch at ashleigh's sunday, which was awesom :) and yeh, so now, i'm feeling a bit better, a friend of mine is about to have twins, and yeh well otherwise everything is pretty much fine and dandy :P

One day i'll fly away.... one day...

Do you ever get that feeling, like your working so hard, but getting nowhere? well i get it all the time, mainly due to my impatience, but it does get a little frustrating. However, we perservere, because eventually things will change if you work hard enough, and then, you will fly.
At least, thats what i want to happen... i want to fly, metaphorically speaking, i want to succeed, i want to win.

Two weeks!

OMG TWO WEEKS!!!!!! :'( tear, i now haven't seen matt in two weeks, and its so annoying! and its like impossible to see him during the week, what with homework, family and crap! and then family is just as much stress on its own! i mean i'm seen dad for what, 10 minutes in the past two weeks???!!!! its crazy!i want to see dad, i want to see matt, and i want to freaking well stop being tense, angry and frustrated at mum!
But honestly, if the next two years are the same intensity as the past three weeks, then i am seriously going to die! i swear, i will be on the ground screaming and tearing at my hair! i don't know how i'm going to cope!!!!! its not good!
anyway, moving on to more drepressing topics... i have a full inbox.. should do something about that.... and i got three new movies today from ashleighs mum, and i got a drawing doll thing :) mwahahahaha! ok well i think thats enough for now...... luv yas!

this is my nether-world conscience speaking...

well well well, GREETINGS FROM MY NETHER-WORLD OF NIGHT!!!! mwa ha ha ha, yes i am a little insane. if not completely. but thats to be argued at a later date. Update on moi, as this is a blog all about me, or at least what i choose to put on here.... so myes. anyways moving on.
Life is very, well odd at the moment. its not odd in a bad way, just interesting. i mean, mitch is being a bit odd, like as in, hug, let go, hand lingers around waist. i mean hes a nice guy, i luv him as a friend, just i have a boyfriend, who i'm very happy with, so it makes it a bit awkward.... anyway. but the old thing of making sure u get help with time management, is really awkward.... cause i know what to do, its just doing it thats the issue. oh well thats just something i'll have to rectify on my own i guess. oh well i'm bored with talking now, so i'll leave it there.

hmm, first week down, 9 to go :)

well the first week of year 11 passed with any major catastrophe. which is good. Working at Lotus Gardens is not great, but i get paid, and as long as i get paid, i guess it'll be worth it. but i have no intention of staying there longer than 6 months, then i'm changing jobs to something with an english speaking boss, and no food. anyway, GOTHIC LITERATURE :D HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY! heh heh, extension english..... :) anyway, i'm still in love with matt, but the only bummer is, now that we're back at school, i only get to see him on weekends really, which sucks a bit, but it does let me get work done, which is nice for a change.... but still of all my bfs, hes the one i want to see most! damn murphy's law! anyway, so asides from all that, life is good, apart from extreme frustration at miles, whatever... and yeh...

yr 11............. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

well, walking home in the rain, 5 hours late is actually quite fun i've found. and also finishing school at 12, and not having to go to sport is quite unnerving, its cool, but quite bizzare. anyway, i got to hang out with ash and nikki for a bit at the library, then hanging out with nikki ash, tom, heath and dane. then just tom heath and dane, and yeh well i mean it was a bit of a social afternoon :) AND WE BROKE THE LIONEL WATTS CURSE!!! :D so happy. but yes, Gothic literature in extension english has definatly been a highlight :) and having a breakfast club in textilkes and design and tech is going to be very amusing i think :)