more on me...

The trials are at halfway, and i have two exams to go...

I have ancient history tomorrow, which i really don't want to do. I hate it now, i'm so frustrated with it and it is driving me up the wall. Besides the fact that i can't do it, i'm finding it too much to remember. I then have Textiles on Friday, which is scary. Mainly because i'm not feeling confident about it as i used to.

I am also finding myself in a dilemma in that i don't know what i want to do after my HSC, and what i want to do about my dad and the rest of my family. As i have said repeatedly, when dad is fine, everything is good. When he isnt fine, everything goes to shite. I love him dearly, but there are moments when i just don't know what to do. I don't want to go stay with my mum, because of Greg, and there are times when i don't want to stay with dad, because of whats going on, and i don't want to look like i'm abandoning him too...

I'm in a state of indecision, and even then i can't decide whether i really am or not... or if its juts me having a 'wierd' moment. or a series of 'wierd' moments.

Ah well, i shall see how things develope...

cioa xoxo

Eek. The Trials are Coming!