wheres the wall?

well life is an interesting concept, somehow i think mine is doomed.

Mr b was trying to have a go at me for not going to class yesterday, and i dont know, i just got annoyed that he wouldnt just accept the fact that i didnt go because i didnt have my stuff and too tired etc, so i just walked out. Not such a good idea in retrospect, but all the same i'm working on the wall, but it keeps getting knowcked down. a useless irrelevant metaphor, but i don't care.

in anycase, i honestly have no idea what i want at the moment, in relation to anything really... my life is just confusing me at the moment, i know i worry too much, an i know i need to stress less, but the trouble is, alot of those traits make up part of me. anyways, i guess they're part of me that i should learn to live without.

'Oh these men these men!' in the words of Desdemona. a sentiment which i share at present... i wont say any more than that on the matter.

and where are the damn bricks, i need to build this bloody wall! why does he have to be so irritating as to come along and knock it down just as i think i'm finishing it and blocking him out!

sigh, some things in life will never make sense entirely will they? oh well, not really an issue, its fun all the same :P

and now moving on to other news. well there isnt much other news... just that today we had the leadership day, and i didnt go to extention english afterwards, which i'm going to get crap for tomorrow, bu i really don't care... :P

and i got stood up again! well not really, just joe didnt show up for lunch today... but thats ok i guess, i'll just have to kick his butt later :P jks

so yes, that was my day, it was so good to sleep in though!!! :P

so we shall see what the rest of the week brings :P

luv yas! xoxoxo

spare me the details!

well lets see, squeaking bed syndrome continues, if u don't understand that then don't ask, i am not going to explain it to you if i a havent already.

so yes moving on, three assessments for textiles in two periods! whoah! way to much! :P
anyways thats something i'll get over.

sigh, some people confuse me, and i dont like it seeing as then i am not in any sort of control or whatever, but yeh anyways. if your thinking that i'm talking about you, you're probably wrong.. :P

luv yas! xoxoxo

sigh, sleep needed!

what a day, what a day, well TAS parade re-run this morning was good, sortof. a bit chaotic as usual, but otherwise good.
in the meantime, things are going ok, excluding that ancient history assignment, society and culture, and the fact that gregs moving in in 4 weeks, and that i really should talk to mum, but i really dont want to.
other than that things are good! :P
i guess that about sums things up for the moment, and just so everyone gets the point.. IT IS NOT A HICKIE ON MY NECK! IT IS ECZMA!!!
i even had a teacher ask me!!! *o* so shocking!
sleep now!

TAS! AHHH STRESS OUT!

hello world!? how is everybody on this bright and sunny day!
well i must say i am absolutly exhausted, and i am feeling exceptionally shitty!
so yes, well the TAS parade went as well as could be expected. despite a few mix ups with dance moves and music, it all went comparitavely well to last year and such.
in anycase i must go, and do the tas parade again, for the mimosa kids.
oh yay!

words, colour and movement!

another envetful day has passed me by in the lead up to TAS. rehersals at lunch went as well as can be expected, and i have to go in early tomorrow as well, so shall be fun. The night will go well if all goes according to plan. Heres hoping!

otherwise life is ok at the moment, i have the train exhibition this weekend which shall be good. I GET TO SEE MY DADDY!!! :D
i'm happy :)

its exzma!

well my computer is a skanky hoe!
and life is cruisey once more, except the TAS parade, and that ancient history thing, and the whole extension english stuff, oh and the society and culture assignment i had forgotten about... :P
but yes otherwise things are going ok
i do not have a hickie on my neck... it is eczma or other associated dermological mishap.
anyways
moving on
lets get away from this place
i want to run and hide
in some new escape
long ago
far away
i knew of a place
that could take my pain away.

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Distracting and Intimidating... hmmm......

Well lets see, whats new and interesting?

Well lets start with last night!
:P yes, it was Joe's movie/pool night, and it was quite entertaining. Pool had to be my highlight, and beating both Tom, and Joe at it. I'm not sure ifi beat Ryan or not, i dont think i did, but i cant quite remember. Which i can happily attribute to the two and a half shot glasses of Jim Beam which i consumed on an empty stomach in less than an hour. The not so good part of that was the minute or so massive headspin. and ensueing headache, but that subsided, and i felt quite alright.
Another interesting thing to come out of the night, we were watching the movioe Battle Royale, quite an odd flick, and i would have sat through it had it not been for the pool table... in anycase, ended up playing with Tom and Ryan, after both their girlfriends had already left. So anyway, we were playing, and somehow it came up in conversation that i was distracting to males, and intimidating to females, i am yet to grasp exactly how it all fits. But according to Ryan, Nadia left because she got annoyed at him for 'checking me out'. Which he hadn't. It was a misunderstanding, when he spent too long trying to read my shirt. Which took him longer than usual due to his slightly intoxicated state. so yes, thats the verdict on moi. Distracting and Intimidating....

in other news, the TAS display is coming along, its an odd thing to organise, and i'm not 100% sure that its going to work as planned, but i'm hoping feverishly that it will.

so otherwise not much has happened, i have spent most of my weekend beading my skirt for the TAS parade, quite a chore might i add. and i still have the zip and waist band to go.

so i shall leave this entry here, and i shall return with more updates on my life later :)

'so you had a bad day, you've taken one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it aroundyou say you don't know, you tell me don't lie, you work at the smile and you go for a ride'

:D

Thursdays..

i haven't blogged in a while, not alot new has happened.
same old crap with greg, family issues, starting to worry about dad a bit, cause its getting to the stage where if he's not careful he'll slip up agian, and fall back into the hole where he was...
the usual guy troubles are there, and things with school work are trying to sort themselves out, with some assistance from me, so i guess its all going ok at the moment. i just wish i didnt get so tired....
Ballet was good tonight, just i was very very rusty, it has been so long since i have gone to a class! its been about 6 weeks i think! :P
in any case TAS display coming up! :D shall be good, provided everything runs smoothly :P which i very much doubt, but in anycase we can hope.
i shall keep you posted on anything new and interesting that happens,
but the highlight of today, which i just remembered, would have to be 'causing' mr barnes to drop his coffee mug which rob and the other guys gave him for his birthday :P it was quite amusing, as nikki and i found, even though we really had nothing to do with it at all! :P *cough cough*
in any case, see you all later
xoxoxo

Love, Poetry, Lies and Deceit.

Somedays i just feel like i should run off with some random, and build my own life as an uneducated tramp, have three kids, and live a precarious existance between life and death.
6 weeks approx. Thats what i have left of my remaining life. That is the approximate time span from now until judgement day.
Yes, it is official, Greg is moving in.

time is slipping by like mud, i really don't know where i'm going at the moment... i really feel like moving in with dad, but i've thought about it, and it really wouldn't work. its not that it would be to hard, or too far to travel, or anything like that. Just i don't think he would be able to cope.

I guess once tomorrow comes it will be alot better, seeing as its back to school and all that. once i get my normal routine back i'll feel alot better. And i'm seeing the councillor again on tuesday,. so this shall be a nice little update.

the only upside to all this i can find at the moment is the emotional fodder it has presented me with, which i can mould and play with until it forms words which please me, not only greg though, many things have contributed to the mess.

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