wow, 21 days...

Well its been three weeks since my last post here it would seem! WOW!
ohk, well the general update is as follows
week 1: i don't know
week 2: exams, urgh! Ancient History was SHITE!!!
week 3: work placement, great people easy work, in general all good.

the only sad news i have to report is the passing of dads semi-ex-girlfriend, Samara Secre.
We found out on Friday morning, she had a severe asthma attack and died in the ambulance on the way to hospital. The shock affected dad a lot, so a bad night followed, but he's recovering now, and is doing a lot better concentrating on moving on and such.
For the people who know me who read this, it has upset me a fair bit, because she was a wonderful person, and had taken me on as something like the daughter she never had, however, its not something that is going to be affecting me now, its going to be something that i'm going to deal with in myself much later. At the moment my main concern is to look after dad, and help him through things.

If your not aware, this is the second time something like this has happened, Meliessa, dads girlfriend when i was in yr 9, died when she drowned in the bath after taking a hit of heroine. Her memory has stayed with me ever since, and i still miss her. Yet, it did not affect me as you would think, in terms of school and social life etc. Its just the way i deal with death. And while i loved Sam dearly, and i will miss her terribly, I am not in need of any form of TLC or special care. Right now i'm just waiting to cry, and waiting for the final stage to pass.

The funeral is on Friday, i'm not sure if i will go or not.

Good night words

Well i am feeling exceptionally happy at the momentI just spent a day with Tom, and i had a really great time. We had Yum Cha in Manly for lunch with his family, which was very plesant. ANd then afterwards he came over to mine, we had dinner, played scrabble, and watched The Thomas Crowne Affair, and Pretty Woman. It was a really enjoyable day. And i am feeling really good.

I don't know why, but i felt like sharing that. I am currently working on textiles stuff which i am busting to get done, but at least i have made progress. Not much, but its something, and i have my material at least, and so i can at least say i have something to work with.

so for now i bid you good night, and i am going to print my textiles, and head for bed.

Goodnight all! xoxo

Shopping and driving :D

Well i went for my first drive with mum today. It wasn't too bad seeing as she wasn't stressing out too much, cause i already had 20 hours under my belt. Apparently there was only one 'Oh My God' moment for her, but yeh, thats cool. I am booked in for a lesson with an instructor this friday and another later on. And dad and i are working towards getting me my 27 hours which i now need so i can go for my P's as soon as possible. :P

In other news, i got my fabric for textiles, again, twice.....
Story goes we went to spotlight, found 4.5 m of this one fabric for $2 a metre, so we got that. But then we went to Tesutis, and found this better stuff, and bought 6 m of that one. for $39 a metre... but we got a 10% discount at least... but yeh... so that was good. And then mum and i went shopping around Chatswood, and looked at pretty dresses, and jewelry, and i got Ness a small birthday present, as we're donating to the MND research fund as the most part of her present.

School is a bit of a struggle at the moment, i'm falling behind, and its not really a good thing... but i shall get there, i know i will... i have to.

so for now i bid you all adieu, and i shall go play some more on my Piczo site... :D

The First Day of Autumn

Well autumn is here, and i fell strangely content. Dad is on a slow road to recovery. He appears to be on a positive turn, even if its only been a few days. I do feel, however, that this time it will be more of a sucess than past efforts, as the approach is different, as is the support, as is the situation. hopefully this may all culminate to a happier end result than past ventures.

Tom and i are happy together, and i honestly do feel that this time it will last. I'm so glad he is in my life, and without him at the moment, i seriously don't think i would be able to formulate a coherent sentence. He's a balance in my life, and a constant support, and i love him dearly.

Last night we had a yr 7 parent's info evening at school, where a few of the prefectshad to go along and play chit chat games. Not entirely unplesant, but i was able to talk to Mrs Di, and she was able to find out about the new living arangements with dad and things, and i was at least able to report with some events and progress, which made it sound less like a 'risky' choice, as i felt it would be taken by her when it first came to light as a plan. Mrs Zinn was there, and so i talked to her for a while, and i think i'll go see her tomorrow, as she also has some forms for a course about dealing with stress and issues relating to during the HSC year.

i would also like to share with everyone that i now also have a piczo website... something that Renay first put me on to. so check it out while its still under preliminary construction if you like: www.darkdamsel.piczo.com

thats all for now i think, i shall adjourn here, and go muck about doing something else... maybe school work... :P
xoxoxo