i don't know if i can say it...

I'm tired. And i'm not coping with mum, dad and greg. I don't know what i can do now to make things better, because i don't feel that moving back to chatswood has helped. I'm just as tired as i was, i may have moments where i can concentrate more in class, but in comparison i really don't know how mauch affect even that is having on my marks etc. My last english assessment cam back better than i thought it would, but still not great. Although that was from before the move.

In chatswood i never feel totally comfortable. "my room" is not my room, and there is nothing of me in there anymore it seems. Its only my desk and my bags. I don't want to make it permanent either. I know, however, that i cant make a move back to dads permanent either. I don't know where to go. I feel like i've lost everywhere that was a home, and now i'm just moving between bases. I don't feel comfortable at forestville, because of dad, and i don't know what i'm ghoing to do for the rest of this year, and next year and beyond.

I don't know if i can keep going doing this. but i don't have much alternative considering the circumstances... i still don't know if i'm ready to ask for help again though....