Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Happy Birthday to my Tommyness!

Well today is Tom's birthday, and it is a grand day to turn 17. Its also great for me seeing as now i'm not going out with a 16 year old :P but its good, and we're going out for dinner tonight which shall be most pleasant.

In other news, well there isn't much other news... Sheree may be getting a job in Canberra, and if she does may end up moving there. Mum is hopefully going to take me to see the house in Normanhurst tomorrow afternoon, and on friday i think tom, myself and a few others will be going tout to the city to have dinner somewhere to celebrate his birthday further :P

So i shall leave this update as it is and go have a drink...

ciao xoxo

Sunday, August 27, 2006

Its Done...

I've handed in both my major works, they have been sent in for marking and now i am able to concentrate on the exams and the rest of my subjects. I'm still unsure about letting my family read my english major work though, i feel that it is so much a part of me and my being, that having them read it will take part of me and show it to them and i don't know if i want them to see that side of me. In anycase i shall decide more about that matter once i recieve my work back from the Board of Studies.

In other affairs, the sale of the apartment has hit another stumbling block. It appears the buyer thinks the building is too old, and so was delaying the sale, and has since backed out i think. although mum and greg are still looking at Normanhurst. I can see why, due to the cost elsewhere, and in Normanhurst we would be able to buy a house, however, i still don't know if i like it.

I'm gradually getting more and more frustrated with school, it is not something i'm enjoying at the moment and i just want it to be over. I feel i am floundering in most of my subjects, especially english, and i'm not as confident with my subjects as i would like to be. I do, however, need to put it all in perspective, something i am coming to understand more readily. I'm realising that it won't be the end of the world, whatever my results, and i will be able to succeed in life if i want to.

I would like to end with an apoligy for my recent grumpyness. I don't know what brought it on, it would appear to be a number of factors, none of which i am able to identify readily. But i am sorry, and will try to improve my disposition in thr future.

Hugs and Kisses...

Monday, August 21, 2006

New Developments

Over the past few weeks i have been living in Chatswood, its been an interesting experience. I don't like living with Greg, and living this far from school is somewhat frustration. Otherwise though, things are more stable now than what they were. So realistically i suppose its a good thing, however i don't like the idea of moving to Normanhurst.

Yes i may be moving to a suburb of Sydney named Normanhurst, i have no concept of where it is apart from the fact that its near Pennent Hills Road... Wherever that is.

In other news, Tom and i are going well, dad is going fine, and school is starting to straighten ut into some kind of order. Now that i have handed in my major work for textiles, and will be handing in my english major work next year i am finding a lot of extra time to work on other things, or i will after tomorrow.

I'm really nervous about handing in my english major work, its been so intergral to my life for so long that i don't know what i'm going to do without it... I'm thinking i'm going to start working on my next project. Or try to work on it amongst the other studies.

So that is me i suppose, and it will do for the moment.
Ciao xoxo

Sunday, August 13, 2006

In the end it doesnt even matter

Well the trials are over and we're beginning to get our marks back. So far i have topped textiles and business services, i'm ranked at 18th in Advanced English with 68/105, which isn't so bad, but i would be nice if it were a bit higher. I'm still waiting onextension and anceint history, which is the one i'm most owrried about. We got through to Rock Eistedfod Grand Finals, and i am handing in my textiles major work tomorrow morning.

I'm scared. I'm franticly working on my textiles, and i'm still not sure if i'll get my folio done on time... its scary. I have been a stress wreck and i don't know how i'm going to go with finishing my extension 2 english either.

In the end...
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

i think this is my song for the HSC. to remind myself that it doesnt matter, even if i have screwed it up.... especially after thinking back on the work i did up until this point.