So hello hello world! well not that the world reads this, but hell, it sounds good. Ok, the movie 'Kingdom of Heaven' is really good, kinda frustrating from the historical point of view, as in hollywood, while keeping to the basic outline of the crusades, etc, had to throw in the bloody love interest! damn that hollywood romance! anyways, as for the company, well i enjoyed it, but still slightly confusing all the same.
I'm having this conflict with myself, reason a) i don't have time for a boyfriend b) i'm too commitmentphobic to go there again with any serious intent c) i really don't need a boyfriend, so why should i worry about one? and alos i have heaps of guy friends that i have fun with, so why not enjoy that? and also, i don't want to be the slut that my mother is, not that she is a slut, just at the moment shes acting like one i feel, well no she isn't, just the way she sees herself and the guys she settles for makes me think of her as in the same league as sluts. not that i can really talk, but i am changing, or at least attempting to change the way people percieve me.
i'm actually glad that not alot of people read this, it makes it easier to write what i want without risking too much insult, except as with everything you say, you need to be careful as to who MIGHT be listening, or in this case reading...... meh c'est la vie. its life, its all good, tests are over and assessments are all reletively up to date. i have very little to worry about.
Love is pointless, it never works anyway. well thats what i'm saying at the moment, love is the illusion that people need to believe in to live. I believe in love, i just don't see the point in it. i love very little, but i still enjoy and find pleasure in many things, so i am still happy without love. LOVE, the four most painful letters in the english alphabet... combined they bring pain, elation and every other emotion in between. *sigh* oh well, let people believe what they will, and die in the knowledge of life. not that that made much sense, but well, its my blog and i'll write what i want to thankyou very much! :P
Love and blessings to you all, who so choose to pass by, this, my humble abode of thoughts.
May blessings shower upon you, and may you have the sense not to open that damn umbrella!
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