sigh, i don't know what i'm doing somedays. Honestly i wake up, and mostly everything is fine, i had a rough time for a few days with everything getting on top of me, and me not being able to cope. But that was getting sorted out, everything was ok, and i could deal again.
Now thats all gone out the window. Rock Eisteddfod was so draining, i was so tired afterwards. Then mum comes to pick me and tom up, and brings greg... enough said?
it just made my night!
well truth of the matter is, he is likely to be moving in sometime, i don't know exactly when, but he is. I have no idea how i'll cope, but hopefully i will remain stubborn enough not to die.
Then mum and him were moving furniture around, and so now we have HIS dinning set, and HIS lounge suit, and HIS coffee table, to match HIS dining table. as well as HIS dinner set which we are now using. its really irritating how he is invading my space, and taking over my home!
I really do hate him. While i can handle him when i'm happy, with it, and not in anything less than a hyperactive extra happy mood, if i am anything other than, he drives me absolutely crazy!
Then school work, a feature article that wasn't working, a few other assignments, one that is already late, and then thinking about TAS display night, Rock Eisteddfod, and Jindabyne, its all going to be a little hectic the first three weeks of term.
Then not being able to talk to ash, that was really hard, and not quite understanding why we weren't talk, and entertaining all different possibilities. which only made it worse.
So all of this came together, and along with the space in my room being totally ineffective, and leaving me no where to work, i broke down. crying so much, i cried for about 2 days. it was aweful.
Then when i went out with friends, i felt so left out, and alone, even though i was surrounded by people, i've just felt so down, its so tiring. Ive been happy for a few days, because ive seen my dad and had time with him, but its still so exhausting, and now coming home tonight and gregs there, its painful.
oh well, thats me at the moment.
its not alot i know, and i should be able to deal with it all really, but i'm working on it.
talk to you all later.