you know, i was actually going to get worried about this whole debacle with cassy, and the leaking of certain facts to the school public, but now i've realised what my priorities really are.
I saw my dad today, saw him yesterday as well, but today made the difference. He is not in good shape, and it breaks my heart everytime i see him now. Last night, he had a drink, but then went to see someine, and as he was going through a roundabout in concord, he collided with a prado. He's ok, physically, but he had to drive the car to the factory, and leave it there. and honestly it was such a scare for him, and me and mum. We had been expecting something like this to happen, but it was one of those things for when times got worse.
So today, seeing him, he's become really quite depressed, he feels, and looks so lost, its hurting so much, and today just made me realise, how stupid the games people at our age play! i mean, really i've never been one for playing games with people, i just get to the point most of the time and say whatever i want, or need to say, at least thats what i do now. i really don't need to worry about what other people say, or do, nor what they want me to say or do, becasue its not what really matters! i can do whatever the hell i like, and provided its the right thing to do, in my mind, then i don't need to listen to what everyone else says.
Life is the fragile balace between conception and destruction. Living along that blade, i have cut myself so many times, when i have nearly fallen. But pulling through, you realise what an impact some people have on your life.
My biggest influence by far has been Meliessa, i loved her so much, and for her to die, especially it being drug related, still haunts me today. I have not known a day to pass since her death, when i have not thought of her.
My life is no where near perfect, and i do not pretend that it is. but the love i hold for people is pure, despite their flaws.
now that its all been put in perspective, i really dont need to say anymore about anything.
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o gd. glad ur happy coz thers a few things iv bin meanin 2 say. wel prob alot of ppl hav bin meanin 2 say it 2:
u cant sing. ur neva in key! so stop thinkin ur gd n 4 fuks sake stop singin!
u giv urself 2 much credit 4 stuf
u think ur so hot but hav u lookd in tha mirra? ur avrag
ur not even close 2 popula. u realy hav 2 think how many ppl like u!
u try 2 draw attention 2 urself but ur just 2 trashy 4 words.
glad i culd say dat, since "things hav bin put in perspectiv" 4 u.
luv ya.
ah.. yeah... that was kind of slack!
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