I don't like it..

Sigh, i'm tired, I'm sorry people, but i am, and i don't really care if anyone is going to whinge about me complaining about it...

I'm thinking it might be an idea to go get a blood test done, just to check to see if it is my diet or something. Although, i do doubt it really is that. Mrs Zinn says i'm in a 'high stress situation/environment.' I don't know what to think about that, although i wouldn't classify it like that if it was me talking... So if that's the case, its likely thats all it is, because its not that i'm tired, as in not awake and my mind is still working sort of thing, i just feel constantly drained emotionally, and exhausted. And food doesnt keep me going that well, i mean it helps, but its not doing what its supposed to i don't think.

I really don't feel too crash hot right now. I feel really out of place, i don't like the way my life is at present, i really don't like how my future is still slightly uncertain, in terms of a unanimous agreement on certain parts ie moving in with dad, and i just really am not happy with the way i am in myself. I just don't know what i'm supposed to do or be. I'm dying to grow up, yet at the same time i'm too scared to leave this place where i feel safest, and where responsibility is still deferred to people other than me. There are things happening which are confusing me, and i don't know how to deal with them. But mostly, i just feel lost. Like i'm a waif floating in and out of a life, that i really don't have much part in.

I'm too strong to be depressed, i'm too weak to feel whole, i'm falling to pieces, but everythings still holding together, like a spiders web is encasing me.

I don't like it....